I Can't Do All of This
This week had a series of events that left me feeling like I was in over my head. I won't go into all of the details, but it was a combination of family, work, and mostly church and ministry responsibilities that had all come to a head. There were people that needed more than I was capable of giving and ministry work that needed done.
In a moment of desperation, I made a phone call to some old friends to ask their help with a particularly sticky ministry need. They jumped in with both feet and have been a great encouragement to me. I was so thankful for God's provision of them in my life. Reflecting on the events several years ago that had actually brought our paths together for a season, made me see God's providential plan that spanned years.
In the days that followed, I became overwhelmed with the magnitude of work that needed to be done. Ministry work that needed to be started or led. I found myself having a crisis moment, "I can't possibly do all of this." There was a very clear whisper back from the Holy Spirit, "That's kind of the point."
My fundamental failure was to think of any of it as work that required me. It is ultimately God's work, and I have the privilege of being the means from time to time. God will provide the resources for his work.
I recently saw a tweet from a pastor that sums up the whole thing: "You are under-qualified for the job of God." I think God would rather have my dependent heart than my independent accomplishments.